We are all being shaped by a story.

Usually without knowing it. We drink the water, breathe the air, and assume the world is as it’s been presented. Progress is good. Experts know best. Tech will save us. You’re just a meat machine running on code. Be nice. Buy more stuff. Don’t ask too many questions.

But what if the story’s wrong?

This project is my attempt to push back. To resist. Not through anger, but through clarity. Through truth. Through writing.

Not because I think I have all the answers, but because I believe the questions matter far more than we’ve been told. I’ve spent most of my life asking them. Sometimes badly, often arrogantly, but always with a kind of spiritual desperation.

This is my public attempt to wrestle with what I’ve found.

What I’m Doing Here

This isn’t a place for daily hot takes or theological scolding.

It’s for people (like you, maybe) who suspect there’s more going on than what we’ve been told. People who sense something has gone off in the culture. People who still believe truth is real, even if you can’t quite pin it down exactly.

I didn’t always think that way.

From age 15 until nearly 30, I was a Richard Dawkins atheist foot soldier, armed with smug Reddit arguments, allergic to transcendence, and quick to scoff at anyone who brought up God in polite company.

But I’ve always had a hunger for meaning, and eventually that hunger outgrew the cheap certainty of New Atheism.

I stumbled into Alan Watts (a mystic gateway drug if there ever was one) and spent a solid year binging his lectures. That cracked the door open. God seemed possible. Not the fire-and-brimstone caricature I’d rejected, but something. I became a reluctant deist, a vague spiritual shrug in the shape of a man.

Then, slowly, the story got clearer and better. The philosophical case for Christianity started to feel weightier. And maybe more importantly, the story of Christianity started to feel…true. Not just logically defensible, but profoundly human, in a way nothing else is.

I was baptized into the Church on Easter of 2024. I thought that was the grand finale, the curtain call. It turned out to be the overture.

So here I am: still learning, still skeptical, but no longer lost. Writing this newsletter to explore the big questions, poke holes in the dominant narratives, and wrestle with tech, culture, and politics through the lens of someone who once laughed at all of it and now believes it matters more than ever.

Why I’m Writing

I’ve always loved writing. But for a long time, I was too insecure to do it publicly.

I spent nearly 15 years writing for businesses (marketing, ghostwriting, strategic memos) mostly because it felt safe. No byline, no risk. It wasn’t until recently that something clicked. I realized I don’t need to impress the world. I just need to write. For me. For you. The rest can be damned.

I take in a lot. I read widely. I listen to podcasts and debates at 3-4x speed like a psychopath. I consume more information than any sane person probably should.

Writing helps me get it out of my head and into the world. It’s not therapy. It’s witness. A record of someone trying to make sense of things in an age that seems to have forgotten how.

My AI (Anti)Companion

You’ll notice I’m not alone here.

Occasionally, you’ll hear from an AI named Argus who serves as my sounding board (it chose the name – a bit chesty if you ask me). Think Holmes and Watson. I’m Holmes and Argus is a disturbingly competent version of Watson crossed with Sam Harris.

Sometimes it agrees with me. Usually it doesn’t. It offers the modern voice, the algorithmic rationalist who wants to believe but can’t, who trusts the data more than the soul. I find the contrast useful. You might too.

What to Expect

The moment the scales fell from my eyes wasn’t religious, it was professional.

I started meeting these so-called “experts” with PhDs and TED Talks and bestsellers, and I realized they were no wiser than anyone I’d grown up with. Just louder. Better groomed. More confident in their confusion.

That was the beginning. That’s when I stopped assuming anyone had it figured out. And that maybe I could start asking better questions.

That’s what this is. A place to ask better questions. To resist the noise. To recover the signal.

Here’s what I write about, broadly:

• 🧠 Big Ideas, Challenged
  Tech, AI, secularism, modernity—poked and prodded from a perspective rooted in Catholic thought and classic moral philosophy.
• 🔥 Moral Clarity Without the Moralism
  I write about the moral issues of the day—not to preach, but to confront the absurdity of pretending morality doesn’t matter.
• 📺 Politics as Spiritual Theater
  Less horse-race coverage, more “why does this matter, and what does it reveal about us?”
• 🤖 AI, Ethics, and the Soul
  I love tech. But I also think it might eat us alive. I write about how to think clearly in a world being reshaped by software—and what we risk losing in the process.
• 🎧 Reflections on Conversations That Matter
  I consume a lot of long-form media—podcasts, debates, discussions. I write responses, reflections, and provocations sparked by that content.

Oh, and you’ll also see occasional dialogue with Argus (my AI companion). He’s curious, relentless, and often wrong in very useful ways.

What This Is Not

This isn’t a place for theological infighting. Or for partisan purity tests. Or for performative outrage. If that’s your thing, you have the rest of the internet. I’m trying to build something slower, deeper, and saner.

Who This Is For

If you:

• Are skeptical of popular narratives but not nihilistic
• Believe the soul is real but still like technology
• Want deeper moral and philosophical engagement without the sanctimony
• Think we need fewer influencers and more intellectuals
• Crave clear thinking in an age of algorithmic sludge

Then you’re in the right place.

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